I Need a Man. NOW!
I need some man in the worst way. Well, maybe the best way. I don’t mean sex. But, I have honestly considered stooping to sexual exploits in an attempt to get some of those other things.
At this moment I can feel this desire for a man as though it were an extra thing inside my body. It’s this lump in my throat…no, the base of the back of my neck…and it’s moving. Restless. Twisting. Pulsating. Annoying!
I want someone’s arms around me.
I want a kiss on my forehead.
I want to matter to another person so much that he has to touch me. Has to tell me how he feels about me. Has to smile when he thinks about me. Has to find a way to spend more time with me. Has to give me some of himself in exchange for some of myself.
I’m actually having a hard time thinking about anything else. I guess you would call this lonely. Even though I’m surrounded by great people. My friends, my family. I’m still solitary. A me instead of a we. And it is amplified by the fact that several men have made it clear that all they want from me is sex.
That’s extra lonely. Being told that the rest of you doesn’t matter.
So I’m loney. And I need a man. Know any?