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Proactivity and the Status Quo

June 11, 2009

Okay, I have made a decision: I will love my job. Whether that means finding a new one or somehow morphing into someone who loves the job I have I will love my job – even if it means convincing the bosses to create a new position just for me.

That’s right, I went for it. I’m all in, betting at the big boy’s table and taking my chances. I don’t know why I waited so long. And I don’t know why I was so afraid. (I have this inappropriate fear of male authority figures that I just can’t seem to shake.) But I sucked it up, walked it off, rubbed some dirt in it and went into the big glass office on Tuesday and suggested they create a new position and give it to me.

I was so scared and I just don’t know why.

What it comes down to is that I didn’t really have a lot to lose. Even if they fired me for my suggestion – which would have been rather out of line – all I would be losing is a job I don’t really like.*

So I did it. I went in there with a proposal, sweat off all my deodorant and all my makeup and I made the pitch. And I think it went right through the strike zone.

Even if nothing comes of it – heck even if they create the job and I don’t get it – I’m proud of myself. The whole thing made me realize how easy it is to be afraid of something that should have no power over me. Like I said, the worst thing that could have happened in this situation is for nothing to change (cause they weren’t going to fire me).

Very often maintaining the status quo is the worst consequence of an action, and yet, we do nothing. What are we afraid of? Making an inappropriate move? Being uncomfortable? Failure?

I still don’t know. Maybe it all boils down to my male authority figure problem. Hopefully after taking this action I won’t be as scared next time. I will overcome the power of the status quo.

* Now, I have loved my job for the last few weeks since I took over some old projects. Even the portions of my job that I don’t enjoy have been bearable because I love the other projects. But once they hire someone new – and they are trying to – the whole thing will change again and I don’t want it to go back to the way it was earlier this year. Plus, there is no reason I should have to give up my weekends for this job or this company.

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