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The GRE and Me

October 5, 2010

The GRE. I’ve put it off long enough now. In fact, true to Crystal form, I have put it off long enough that now I am rather under the wire. I need to take it STAT.

I have decided that I have to take it by the end of the month. (Which was originally just an arbitrary deadline for myself but now I’m learning that I have to get it done ASAP otherwise my results might not be ready in time for applications.) I should have taken it at the end of August like I originally planned but I let myself get sidetracked by vacations and drama (i.e. Pancake Man and the like) and by all the overtime I had been working.

Focus, Crystal. Focus!

Okay…so, I have a few weeks left and I will be studying during all of my spare time. Actually, I guess I don’t really have “spare” time anymore. Just work time, sleep time and study time. (I’m sure I will find a way to squeeze in blog time too. Just not as much I have been able to in past months.)

So I had a study session with my math tutor on Sunday and he actually helped me out for 3 hours. And I actually felt smarter after it was all over. Good news — major relief. In fact, it’s pretty amazing because even though I’m good at math there is something about it that my body hates. I think the part of my brain that has to do math is lazy and maybe injured in some way because math makes my head hurt.

Anyway, If I take the test on the Oct. 29 or Nov. 1 I only have between 24 and 27 days left to study. Maybe I’ll shoot for the first of next month.

Crap.

How did I let it get to this again?

It’s been almost a year and I have barely made any progress toward this graduate school goal.

Okay, that isn’t entirely true. I’ve done a lot of research and I’ve written a ton of stuff. But none of the research has been really conclusive and I haven’t finished most of the stuff I’ve written.

Crap…crap.

I’m really not even sure where I want to go yet. And I don’t really have references and people to write recommendation letters for me. And even if I did I’m wondering if I will be able to finish my applications in time.

Wow…I might have to wait another year to get into grad school.

CRAP!

Well, I’m still going to do my best. And, I guess if I don’t make it in this year there’s always next year. And I’ll just have to keep writing in the meantime.

Although, please don’t hate me if my blogging wanes between now and December.

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  1. October 5, 2010 5:17 pm

    And I actually felt smarter after it was all over.

    For what it’s worth, here’s a little tip I learned from my standardized test-taking study guide I once perused:

    Don’t think of taking a standardized test as demonstrating how smart you are. Don’t think of studying for a standardized test as increasing your intelligence.

    Think of it as learning how to do well on a certain standardized test.

    It’s a subtly different mindset, but if you approach it that way (i.e., like a game), it can make the whole experience a whole lot stressful.

    For what it’s worth. 🙂

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  2. dave c permalink
    October 5, 2010 6:27 pm

    Last time with my 70-536, I had to pay for it, and set a date, to get any studying done for it.

    I must have put it off like 3 times after that. “I have to reschedule.”

    You aren’t alone in your procrastinations.

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  3. October 5, 2010 9:03 pm

    I know this feeling of CRAP CRAP CRAP. You can do it! I’m sending tons of positive vibes your way. Almost too many, you might get die in a tornado full of cash or have a rainbow hit you over the head and knock you out or something. In fact, I will tone down my positive vibes for just a bit. But seriously, good luck. We understand if you can’t write as much – but expect you to come back! And if you need to take an extra year, so be it. BUT: It better not be like people who put off going to college after high school (I’m just gonna take a year off!) and then they become that stoner that always talks about how they always intended to just take one year off and they never went to college… now they are 53 working at Taco Bell. 🙂

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  4. Tanya permalink
    October 6, 2010 7:03 am

    You’ll be fine! Do you have a study book? I used a Kaplan one that I really liked, came with a free CD to play vocabulary games and take practice tests.

    It’s a good idea to bring with you a list of some schools you want to apply for, because (unless things have changed) you can list so many that they’ll send the results to for free when you sit down to take the test. Later, you have to pay a fee for each school to receive your results.

    No pressure or anything. 🙂

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    • October 6, 2010 9:36 am

      I do have a study book and flash cards. I have managed to get some studying done every day for the past week so I’m doing good. The only school I really know I want to apply to right now is The Iowa Writer’s Workshop. And that’s my crazy dream school. This is gonna be rough. Maybe we should have stopped in to one of those psychics on the side of the road and asked them where I should apply to graduate school.

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