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I Accomplished That Big Thing…Now What?

January 3, 2011

So I got my final application mailed on Friday and I have been sighing with relief ever since. In fact, I’ve been sleeping a ton too. I feel like a coiled up piece of spring or wire that is slowly being allowed to uncoil. Each time I think about it I experience more and more relief.

In fact, yesterday I was at the IHOP and I noticed the Christmas decorations. I noticed the decorations and realized that this Christmas i totally missed the decorations and all the other Christmassy stuff. I was so preoccupied that It floated right past me. New Years really did too — although I think I might have skipped it anyway this year based on the weather.

So I got that huge project done and I keep thinking, now what?

Of course I have to wait and see which schools want me. And which schools want to give me an assistantship. And which schools just want to give me money. And I’m stoked to find all that out, but it’s going to be quite a while before I do. And I keep having these moments where my brain is prompting me to work on my applications (because it has become a habit to think about it at this point) and I realize I don’t have to.

That’s when I get that big sigh of relief. But I also think, what should I do instead?

It’s weird. While I was working on it all I felt like I had no time and now that it’s done I feel like I have all this time to spare. Strange how your brain works, eh? Do any of you ever feel like that? It’s almost stressful. And I shouldn’t feel stressed. I should feel the opposite of stressed.

Well, I actually found several new projects. but my brain keeps poking me about my grad school applications and I keep responding by telling it it’s done — and then my brain gives me a “now what?”

I guess I just h ave to wait and some how calm my brain down. And work on my new projects. I started working on a book. I actually started on the book a while back, but now I’m really free to devote some time to it. And…I don’t know where to start. It’s a non-fiction book and I’m going to have to interview a lot of people for it. I’ve let them know that I’m starting interviews soon. I even got a digital recorder for the interviews. But who do I start with?

I also sort of put off dating while I was working on the GRE and applications. Maybe I can pursue that again. Maybe not. When I think about it, it still seems like a waste of time because of the pool of available men in my town. It’s shallow. Very shallow.

Anyway, I just thought you all deserved to know where I’m at since you’ve been reading about my silly grad school quest. I’m done for now. And I’m

6 Comments leave one →
  1. dave c permalink
    January 3, 2011 10:39 pm

    You would make an excellent Dread Pirate Roberts.


  2. Michelle Erskine permalink
    January 4, 2011 10:44 am

    What is the topic for your new non fiction! I’m very curious.


  3. January 4, 2011 8:40 pm

    I’d love to see a few short stories from you… I think you’d have a knack for them. Would be a great thing to post here, perhaps? Just a thought. 🙂
    Congrats on getting all the applications in. You should be very proud for getting it done!!


    • January 5, 2011 8:17 am

      I’ve thought about posting a few of my shorts. Despite the fact that they are SHORT stories, I think they are WAY to long to be blog posts. But I will consider it again. MWAH!


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