There’s a Reason They Call them Crushes…
— Dad to Samantha in John Hughes, Sixteen Candles
I have a crush. And it feels like a crush — in all the good and all the bad ways. Extreme highs and extreme lows and I’m back in high school again.
We barely know one another, but he’s always on my mind. I get a little rush of energy and excitement when I think about him — and seem I think about him all the time. (Is it because he’s thinking about me?)
Of course, I can’t tell if he likes me — and usually I can tell if a guy is interested. And I usually totally get it if he isn’t. And in this situation I can’t even reason through it. (This one doesn’t add up and it is AGONY not knowing.)
I can think of all the reasons why he might not like me and might not want to date me. But I just want a chance to show him all of the reasons he should like me. (I really am amazing. I promise.)
Of course when I’m around him I freeze up a bit. Not completely, but enough that the real me — the best version of me doesn’t come out. (What must he think of me after that conversation?)
Sheesh. What am I going to do about this?
Well, as with most crushes there probably isn’t anything to do. I’ve considered asking him out. But a “no” would make things awkward. Or I’m concerned that it would. And I want the chance to be friends even if he isn’t into me in that way. Cause he’s amazing. And I can’t be making it awkward for amazing men to be a part of my life.
I guess the thing to do is wait. See if he develops and interest in me and try not to be too crushed. Besides, I know there are other women in his life. It’s not like I’m the only female he’s ever met. He might already be in love with someone else.
How about you all? Anyone in deep crush right now? If not can you tell me about your worst crush? Or your best crush? Or just your best crush story? Let’s share!